reality: enough to make me puke

Every college senior's most anticipated day is graduation day.  It's their time.  They've completed four years, and it's now on to a career in real life.  Most of them probably already have things lined up: a job, a place to stay, furniture...

However, as I approach graduation day, I find myself more and more likely to puke.  Am I getting sick?  No.  Anxiety is setting in like never before.  With the wedding only 58 days from today, no job currently lined up, and no place for my future wife and I to live, I am feeling anxiety in a new a deep way.

I know God has everything under control and that He'll reveal His perfect will, but the waiting is what's hard.  I love working with students.  Any job less than that will be disappointing to me.  So, as May 17 approaches, I'll be praying and feeling like I'm gonna blow chunks.